1. |
All Aboard
02:39
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Bittersweet.
The sunset fades into night.
The stars begin to shine.
Pointing to a new sunrise.
But what
Happens when the stars disappear?
Who will I be in ten years?
Will I have realized my dreams?
Because I
Wish to sail the horizons
And make my home in the sky.
And I'm
Leaving my regrets behind
I'm setting off tonight...
...Look at the time
These moments have fallen behind
And now these years of our lives
Are shrinking in the rearview
And we're
Departing on separate trains
Different stations, different days
All Aboard reality.
But I want you
To sail the horizon
And make your home in the sky.
So, my friend,
Leave your regrets behind.
Promise me you'll set off tonight.
We are setting off tonight...
..All Aboard life.
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2. |
If I Had A Dime
04:31
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You, you don't know who I am,
I bet you don't even know my name.
But since you're sitting at the bar anyway,
Would you please just listen to me sing?
This is a song about a little known musician
Who can't seem to break out of small town Massachusetts
And she's doing it on her own
First year of college with no job, no contacts in her phone...
But if she had a dime
For every single time that they said she'd make it
Then she would be rich
And she would have made it a long time ago.
If she had the time to set aside her life,
She would do it in a second
But she is caught in this trap,
And all that's left ... is music.
Well, everywhere she looks there's just another singer out there
And Daddy's wrapped around their fingers
Making phone calls
And her parents try to be supportive
Because they feel like they're forced to
She knows that deep inside they wonder why she wastes her time
Singing her stupid tunes
Well, if she had an "in" maybe she would win,
But she hasn't found it yet.
She wasn't born into this
And she's worked day and night since
She was thirteen, and she had a dream,
And she picked up a guitar.
They all tell her she will be a star
But it never happened.
Will it ever happen?
They swear it will happen...
If I had a dime
For every single time that they've said I'd make it
Then, I would be rich
And I would have made it a long time ago
If I had the time
To set aside my life
I would do it in a second
But I am caught in this trap
In Massachusetts...
If I had an "in" maybe I would win,
But I haven't found it yet
I wasn't born into this
And I've worked day and night since
I was thirteen and I had a dream
And I picked up a guitar
They all tell me I will be a star,
But it never happened
And you...
You don't know who I am.
You probably still don't know my name.
But since you're sitting at the bar anyway,
I guess you have to listen to me sing.
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3. |
If You're Gonna Love
03:09
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I will sleep soundly tonight.
And I will make it through tomorrow
Without putting up a fight.
If you're gonna love me, you will.
I realize that I do not have control
And if your heart is somewhere else,
Then I have to let it go.
If you're gonna love me you will.
I will never tie my hands,
I will never shed a tear.
If you wanted to be by my side,
You would be right here.
If you're gonna love me, you will.
I will not speak to you one-sided
I will never chase after you
You don't want me. You decided.
If you're gonna love me, you will.
I will not wait for you
'Cause you said you might come back
I don't pray for the future
I depend on the present
If you're gonna love me you will.
I will never tie my hands,
I will never shed a tear.
If you wanted to be by my side,
You would be right here.
And if you ever thought of me
I hope you'll make a move
'Cause as of now I'm letting go
And there will be nothing left soon.
I am giving up on you
Am I giving up too soon?
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4. |
Grace of God
03:48
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On the first morning you were gone,
I watched the sun rise.
Spent the whole day cursing the world
How dare there be light in the sky!
If you're not in my life, if you're not in my life...
How will I survive?
If you're not in my life?
I spoke to you the night before,
Just the regular rant about my life.
And you said "Life's too short,"
Well, life's a cruel giver of advice
If you're not in my life, if you're not in my life...
How will I survive?
If you're not in my life?
And I swear that I could feel you there
In a quiet chapel
Whispering in my ear
And I pray that you will never leave
That you will always keep
The piece of me that you are taking.
If you're not in my life, if you're not in my life...
("There, but, for the grace of God, go I")
How will I survive?
If you're not in my life?
"There, but for the grace of God, go I"
Never wanted to say goodbye
How will I get by
If you're not in my life?
There, but for the grace of God we go
Clutching tight the hope that we know
You'll never truly be gone from our lives
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5. |
Indifferent
04:16
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If you say that you're my friend, please, be my friend.
Promise to be there until the bitter end.
'Cause some people fade away, and some people masquerade
And I don't care enough to tell the difference.
If you plan to do me wrong, then do me wrong.
Only cowards stand and leave before the end of the song.
Well, if you're gonna dislike me, I hope you'll do it honestly
'Cause I don't have the energy to be ambivalent.
And that's my side of the story
Take a look at where you've brought me
I never thought you'd be so angry at nothing
Never thought I'd be so okay with just walking away
Indifferent... Indifferent... Indifferently.
If you say you're overwhelmed, let me carry the load
Excuses don't mean more than the dirt on the road
Well, many hands make light work, no need to be so damn stubborn
'Cause I said I'd be your friend, don't you remember?
And I thought that's what you told me
But take a look at where that's brought me
Don't you know how I held you up so highly?
Yet you were so okay with just dismissing me
Indifferent... Indifferent... Indifferently...
Here's to the ones who say they'll be your friend
But end up petering out when you really need them
So in lieu of having words to say, I think I'll just get on my way.
Sometimes it just pays to be indifferent.
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6. |
Winter Song
03:21
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Lock me out in the dark and cold
Bury me deep, under the snow
Keep me from the places safe and warm
Who am I to brave this storm?
I got lost in a sea of white
Loss of color, loss of life
I wondered if this is what it's like to die
Did it hurt? Did you mind?
I am just floating
And the world keeps on turning
And the flurries are dancing
In the silent night
In the midst of what is missing
I find that I'm still living
In this barren world
I have survived the storm
You were a lighthouse beam in the dead of night
I'll miss your guiding light until the end of time
But you are buried deep under the snow
Yet, I am the one trapped with nowhere to go
I am just floating
And the world keeps on turning
And the flurries are dancing
In the silent night
In the midst of what is missing
I find that I'm still living
In this barren world
I have survived the storm
In this barren storm,
I will make it out of this blizzard.
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7. |
Evaporate
02:50
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Maybe I need to get away
Step outside and just evaporate
To the middle of nowhere
So I can be alone
They say you aren't anybody
Until you're loved by somebody
Do I love myself
Enough to make it on my own?
Nobody loves me here,
But I'm still alive.
I guess that makes me
Worth another try.
Sometimes I yearn for approval
I won't shut up,
Then I'll search it in Google
Just to prove I'm not the only one
But that is not a way to live
Dependent on what I take
Instead of what I give,
And what if all I take are lies?
I've been a shadow lately
But I still exist
And maybe someday,
I'll be something that can't be missed
You can either like me, or don't
You can either call me or you won't
But there is no in between
And I will act accordingly
If you wanna hold my hand, you will
If you want more or less, you know the drill
But there is no in between
And I will act accordingly
I don't love people in halves
Or say things in "maybes"
You can either like me,
Or you can leave me.
Maybe i need to get away
Step outside and just evaporate
To the middle of nowhere
So I can be alone
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8. |
Have A Heart
02:54
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I do not trust
Anyone but myself
It's a risk to let anyone else
Close enough to bring me down
I am sick
Of being judged from all angles
Watching friendships become tangled
They're all calling me emotional now
I'm sorry that I have a heart.
I'm sorry I tend to impart
My honest opinions, it's respect I've given you
And you just laughed out loud.
I am tired
Of fighting to be included
Worrying that I may have ruined
Everything by being myself
And I know
That you get power from placing me lower
Looking down at me from your pedestal
It's purely hypothetical.
I'm sorry that I have a heart.
I'm sorry I tend to impart
My honest opinions, it's respect I've given you
And you just laughed out loud.
I'm walking,
Who's laughing now?
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9. |
My Mistake
04:00
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I feel stupid.
There's just no way around it.
You were the first I ever trusted.
You let me down.
I need my strength back.
Too weak to just walk out
And face the possibility
of not seeing you around.
You don't feel anything
At least, that's my understanding
Rather upsetting considering how
I wrote your name in gold
And all I'm asking
Is how I feel you fairly owe to me
Since you've reduced my sanity
To frantic guesses.
Didn't you understand
When you got yourself into this
That you would hold
My heart in your hand?
But if I could take a time machine
Back to that night when you kissed me
I would never change it
Is that where my mistake is?
I feel misled.
What should I do about it?
You always change the topic
When I bring it up
It's not fair
How you leave me hanging
When I know you spend your time
Talking to everybody else
Is it worth it?
I am trying to be rational
But I'm inexperienced, you know
You make me crazy.
I miss that feeling
That you used to give me
Every time we'd touch,
Electricity
Didn't you understand
When you got yourself into this
That you would hold
My heart in your hand?
But if I could take a time machine
Back to that night when you kissed me
I would never change it
Is that where my mistake is?
Maybe there is something that I missed
You grew distant right after we kissed.
Was it too fast? Was I distracted?
I thought you said we were going to last
And so I fell...
So I trusted...
Didn't you understand
When you got yourself into this
That you would hold my heart?
That you would hold my heart?
But if I could take a time machine
Back to that night when you kissed me
I would never change it
Is that where my mistake is?
Was this a mistake?
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10. |
Attention Passengers
04:20
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Attention passengers, this is your singer
As you can tell, I have been through the ringer
Like everyone else on this rocket ship to the moon
Life on Earth isn't always the nicest
And I've been hard pressed for flotation devices
I'm treading water but I won't drown
I'd rather venture into the unknown
Than stay pinned down in your chair
Well, you think you've seen the best of me
But I'll tell you when I get there
For now, I'm gonna be good.
I'm gonna be good.
Attention passengers, this. is. not. a. drill.
At the end of this journey, you all will be killed.
Can't tell ya how or when or why, though the best of us have tried.
So how would you like your story to go?
What wisdom will you sow when you grow old?
Who are you yesterday today and tomorrow?
Well you can hate me,
Berate me, humiliate me
And it won't change a thing.
I've already grown a million blossoms on this bold and beautiful tree
So I guess that makes me good.
I'm gonna be good.
Attention passengers... can you hear me?
Well, life is not fair
But it's fair
that it's unfair for everyone.
But I won't sacrifice the galaxies
Because I'm scared
Of being burned by the sun
I reached right up past
All your jabs and your taunts
And I found who I am
Who the hell needs a life jacket
When you've learned how to swim?
...
...
I guess that makes me good.
I'm gonna be good.
Attention passengers, I think i'm gonna be okay.
Attention passengers, I never needed a flotation device anyway.
Attention passengers, I am going to be me, 'cause I am the only me that I can be
Attention...
Attention passengers, this is your singer
As you can tell I have been through the ringer
Like everybody else
Like everybody else.
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